Could i get over?

Could i get over? That's the only thing that is always running out of my mind. Yes, cause im having a hard time to keep kyle out of temptations. It's not just I find trusting him way too hard, Well, yeah, I used to do it that way, but since, Trusting him is the only thing i could run into, I realized that i really have to obey my friends' advice(which is trusting him) If you guys don't mind, quite frankly, i was really disappointed of the bad things happened to both of us. He already lost my trust, really. But because of the so-called L o v e, I can't help myself, but to believe in him in everything again. Yes, everytime we break up, lots of people i know, tells me not to continue breaking up with him, and so because we were together for almost 1 year and 8 months. Undeniably, we had lots of trials in our lives already. We just have to be strong in able for us not to lose something or someone in our lives. Yeah, that is one thing i could tell you that i always do, Nowadays, i could see how much my life perse` is the only one who's handelling my relationship with my boyfriend. I never lose hope, and so because of my love for him as well as for his family. His family were very close to me, to my heart. I really love them so much. They were one of my greatest treasure in my whole life. Whenever we have problems, i usually talk to his dad, im very grateful because he's always willing to help us.

I have lots of confusions in my life since then, The only thing i do is to pray. Because i believe that God wont let us down. He'll help us, as long as we're deserving to be helped. I could say, im way too lucky cause eventhough i'd encountered lots of biggy problems in my life, im still here. Im still strong, and became more stronger due to all the trials came on my way.

Sometimes, I feel so down when kyle is keep on disappointing me on some other stuffs. I know, nobody's perfect, he's not perfect, and so do i, Im not used to be like this. Before, there's no such thing as second chance for me. But when kyle came in my life, Everything has changed. Including all the bad things i have. He changed me a lot. He made me feel so special above all things. Im really thankful because God gave me the one that im looking for, for so so long time. He's my everything. He's my life. I dont want to lose him in just one snap. I told myself to hold on as long as he's still the only guy that could make me happy more than i've ever expected to be.

I know im still too young to love this much, but, does age matters when it come to love, doesn't it? Kyle's the only guy i loved more than myself, really. I usually become too numb when it comes to him. But my heart is the only thing who's not getting numb at all. I get hurt. I cry. I get disappointed. Im not insentitive. I just think that realtionships has its ups and down. have trials and success. I do believe on the saying; Just love and it will all come back to you. Yeah, im deserving to be loved though, 'Cause i know to myself that i give everything just to make him happy. Just to make him feel to be contented enough with what he have in his life right now. I dont believe that loving too much isnt good for us. Isn't it, God suffered and died for all of us because he loves us too much? Theres no such thing as important in loving someone more than everything does.

Everytime i talk to my brother, he teaches me lessons about love, though i know, he has no love life at all. But i know who's the only girl in his heart since he fell in love when he is still in highschool. He changed a lot since that girl touched his heart, then. My brother is one of my role model when it comes to love. Because as i notice, He still loves that girl although that girl is treating him as her big bro only. There's no biggy for my bro, all he want is to see that girl happy. And so do i for my boyfriend, I want him to be happy, that is why im not losing hope to keep these things lasts forever.

thank you for those who will read this up. Hope that you guys learned some lesson on this post.:)